Motherhood is a race against time

I enjoy it most in the middle of the night, right after she gets drunk on milk. By then, she gets too intoxicated to care and I hold her by her bum and her neck before gently putting her on my body, tummy to tummy.

I can smell her hair, kiss her forehead, touch her face, pat her back and hug her tight. And I can feel her breathing. It feels like every part of her tiny ecosystem is in sync with mine. And she always makes those cooing sounds... makes me hug her tighter, afraid that she will grow up too quickly for this.

I can calm her down immediately if she twitches and make sure she is throughly asleep before I put her back to bed. We get a good burp and are not disturbed by her Moro reflex. I like.

The only downside was that i had to figure out how to get up from bed and not affect the koala baby. Difficult with a caesarean wound but do-able with practice.

I probably can't do this for too long but I'm gonna savour every minute whilst it lasts.

蜡笔小新!

Joy Joy, 你要怪就怪Jiahao叔叔... 是他说你像的...

美丽的早上。。。

昨晚梦见爸爸跟我玩。。。睡醒的时候心情超好！

尿布湿了。。。睡不着 T.T

妈妈我要喝奶。。。

喝完奶。。。。还是睡不着 T.T

跟 zZz monster 奋斗了几个小时，有点昏昏沉沉的。。。

折腾了一个上午...zzZ monster 终于征服了我！

Sleep Monster 1, Joy Joy 0

为了确保妈妈不敢动，我用我可爱的小脚征服了她。。。

- 十五分钟后 -

 

妈妈发现我睡醉了。。拍下这张照片，纪念我可爱的脸颊。。

妈妈请的小帮手。。。

Daddy's heart is here

4 days in Indonesia, 4 days in China and the rest of the 3 weeks on reservist = a very joy (pun intended) deprived Daddy.

He was on wait list for a 5pm flight from Indonesia back to Singapore (which would give him precious time to have a home cooked meal and be with his Joy) but it was full and end up Daddy's flight back from Indonesia landed close to 10pm today, by the time he reached home, it was close to 11pm and he needs to rush for a 1.15am flight to China. Very very rush. I had to standby his clothing and luggage and together, we packed for a -8 degrees trip to China in 20 minutes.

Whilst waiting for his flight, Daddy was texting me. He said he read my last post and felt very sad because he doesn't have enough time with Joy Joy. T.T

Joy Joy, who usually sleeps through the night now (i.e sleeps for a stretch of 5 hours at night.. I know, lucky us) woke up unexpectedly just as Daddy reached downstairs. Talk about telepathy..

First thing Daddy did when he reached home was to carry Joy Joy and plant hundreds of kisses on her chubby cheeks. His heart must be aching from missing her terribly.

The picture's blur, but it doesn't matter at all. Isn't it?

When Daddy reached the airport
I texted him to say I put in a scarf in his luggage just in case and he replied to say he missed me and Joy Joy already.

T.T ... Luckily Daddy also said he missed me. The Daddy has always been quite smart...

Claiming our rewards

Chanced upon this when I was random kaypo-ing on FB whilst nursing Joy Joy.

All along I've been feeling the immense stress of taking care of a fragile human being. It is stressful but I have been rewarded as well.

What about Daddy? How has he been feeling?

The other day, I overheard him talking to Joy Joy and he said something like "Joy joy papa love you very much... I gave up everything for you.." hmmm.. Gave up everything means what?

When i was recovering from delivery, Daddy put his job aside for me because i was really not doing well. And now that I am better, he's been putting his focus back to work because it's audit season.

Most days he'll come back visibly tired but his face will always light up for Joy joy. He'll open the room door and ask to kiss Joy Joy if she's sleeping. Or he'd burp Joy Joy / change her diaper / play with her before going back to his daily games / surfing / tv and we spend a little time together before he foes back to his stuffs and i go back to Joy Joy. Typical.

I think he has too little time with his reward.